wah! kainis na tagboard..

Still can't use my tagboard from my PC..brrr..
Anyway..thanks lee! i'm feeling so much better na ..salamat! Godbless!

yahoo! yehey! hip hip hurray!

i realized that my last post which was about some weeks ago is indeed quite gloomy. And i don't like reading it right now when i'm feeling so much better again.:) thank God!

It was funny because the day after i posted 'it' i felt so much better already.
It was a monday and i went to work. I guess that was all i needed!
To get out of the house and chat and laugh and joke around with my co-workers..who happen to be VERY funny and animated people..

I think that's how counselors get by with all the stress they've mustered through the school year..we make fun of ourselves and laugh at the even the corniest remarks during vactions..haha. i sooo enjoy going to work during school breaks. It's like being back in college with your buddies minus the quizzes and assignments..hahaha..

and! i finally got my summer getaway. Some counselors and i will be going to banaue, batad and sagada this weekend. I'll be out for about 1 week, mountaineering, caving, walking and appreciating nature. i am soooooo excited! (Thanks to the head of this adventure, ate diovie and her good friends) I'm looking forward to sleeping in ifugao huts and eating mountain rice. hehe..
And for more adventure, when we come back home, we will have the Guidance Department's outing at Adventure Haven. We'll be pulling out all that we've learned from C.A.T. and R.O.T.C. (if there is any..haha) and we'll be sweating ourselves out on camp activities.

also, everything about the person who i supposedly could not trust blah blah blah...mentioned in my previous post is now A-okay. i mean i can't believe i even mentioned being bothered by it..haha.. it's good to have an objective perspective once in a while especially if you're drowning in boredom. haha. i know i'm being evasive about this but that's the way i want to keep it anyway..

My sister and i finally got over the MA issue. it's not that we really talked about it and finally resolved it. the issue kind of just died down on it's own.. which is a good thing. i took the entrance test of the my preferred university anyway. I just hope i passed. The math part drained me, naturally. I wasn't able to finish it so what happened was hula-hoops na lang sa dulo..haha.

Oh well oh well, i'm so thankful everything is fine right now. i'm quite excited for no particular reason. maybe because i'm looking forward to how things will unfold in the future and maybe im being more open to risks or maybe because some new things are about to unfold..bwaha!

Thankyou Lord.:)

What comes to mind when you're bored...

okay.. im having quite a shitty day.. okay, days...

i hate to admit it because my reasons for having so are sooooo petty they can actually come across as pathetic.

i mean compared to other people who have waaay bigger problems than i do, i shouldn't even be complaining!! i have so many blessings to be thankful for.. blessings other people could only dream about yet i choose to feel this way.

to make things worse, i don't want to talk about it with anyone even if im dying to do so. i feel my troubles are so petty that i don't even want other people to hear about them. i feel they'll just look at me and shake their heads and think of how shalow i can be..grrr..

i know these phases in my life will pass sooner or later..sooner i hope. they're just mini-teensy-weensy-microscopic-inner struggles i face once in a while when i'm frustrated or bored or bored or frustrated..

the past week was holy week. i learned a lot of great things but i can't seem to get this gloom off of my chest.. my head is struggling with my emotions once again. ofcourse i know i should listen to what my head is saying but emotions can really be stubborn at times..but i haven't given up. Nope. Still struggling..and will continue struggling till my head gets the better of me.

I've chosen to bury myself in books..good books mind you, i abhor pocketbooks..

atleast books render me moments when i can just escape my own life and my own feelings for the meantime. As an added bonus, i get to learn some good lessons about life and lessons on vocabulary..

frustration plus boredom plus lack of adventures..add em all up and you'll get this..

anyway, let me list down some things that will help in my catharsis:

1. im bored.

2. i need a summer getaway.

3. my sister's irritating me with my decision regarding my MA studies..grrrr

4. someone whom i seemingly could trust and i really wanted to trust turns out to be someone i can't trust after all.

5. i know i'm so much better not minding this someone but i can't seem to stop thinking of this someone.

6. i'm surrounded with so much love by my family and my God yet i can't seem to appreciate them right now..worse, i'm lonely right now. (hate to admit this yet i feel it is essential to my healing if i may call it..)

7. i'm wasting so much time and effort in thinking of nonsense things..

8. i need something new to happen in my life right now..

9. oh! and before i forget, i looked at my crush's (how do you spell that?!!) friendster profile a while ago..and i know he's been in a relationship for like a month or two, but i just wanted to check his profile anyway..and i know im so sourgraping when i say this but my gosh!! his girlfriend looks like his mother!!! "WhaaaT?!" was my first reaction when i saw their picture.. okay okay..his young mother. But still his mother anyway..hahahahahaha! i am soooo bad for saying that but it's good to use defense mechanisms once in a while as Freud said..haha. how i love Psychology!

okay, that's about enough revelation for now. phew..hopefully, things will get better soon.

i really need to go out soon. i know good things are in store for me. and i miss my students. i miss counselling already. it's like i am able to find myself when im helping someone. i come to life when i am able to reach out to someone.

need to finish the book im reading..i just borrowed it..

My Curretn Issues

i got this from a friend's post in Friendster...
These are just some excerpts from the piece which caught my attention.

Falling in Love by Kent Burn

Just as life itself is
more than the sum of the bones and
muscles and electrical impulses in thebody,
love is more than the sum of the
interests and attractions and
commonalities that two people share.

If you find yourself in love with
someone who does not love you,
be gentle with yourself. There is nothing
wrong with you. Love just didn't
choose to rest in the other person's heart.
If you find someone else inl
ove with you and you don't love him,
feel honored that love came and called
at you door, but gently refuse the
gift you cannot return.
Do not take advantage, do not cause pain.

WHEN HE SEES HIS IMAGE

**Let me share with you a beautiful reflection by a priest on today's Gospel reading...**

BY: Fr. Sandy V. E.

A story is told of a group of women that met for Bible study.

While studying the book of Malachi, chapter three, they came across verse three which says: "He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver." This verse puzzled the women and they wondered how this statement applied to the character and nature of God. One of the women offered to find out more about the process of refining silver, and to get back to the group at their next Bible study. The following week, the woman called up a silversmith and made an appointment to watch him while at work. She didn't mention anything about the reason for her interest, beyond her curiosity about the process of refining silver.

As she watched the silversmith work, he held a piece of silver over the fire and let it heat up. He explained that in refining silver, one needed to hold the silver in the middle of the fire, where the flames were the hottest, so as to burn away all the impurities.

The woman thought about God holding us in such a hot spot, then she thought again about the verse that "He sits as a refiner and purifier of silver." She asked the silversmith if it was true that he had to sit there in front of the fire the entire time the silver was being refined.

The man answered yes, that not only did he have to sit there holding the silver, but he had to keep his eyes on it the entire time it was in the fire. If the silver was left even a moment too long in the flames, it would be destroyed.

The woman was silent for a moment. Then she asked the silversmith, "But how do you know when the silver is fully refined?" He smiled at her and answered, "Oh, that's easy - when I see my image in it." (Tina Harrison)

Some of the first words of God that were ever written were, "...he created man in his own image..." This serves as a stamp on each man—God's image has its imprint on all his human creation. Nonetheless, we have to know that while it is already a given fact, it is still a project or a mission that everyone must work to sustain. That imprint must be continually realized in one's person and life. We can only know that "it is done" when the image of God can truly be reflected on our life, such that like St. John, man may be able to say, 'it is no longer I that lives but Christ lives in me.

Father, thank You that You don’' leave me in the flames for longer than necessary.